TWO VERTICAL RED LINES
Man did those seven months feel like seven years. Let’s hope I can hold back my tears, because truth be told--it was one HELL of an emotional ride.
Let’s start with when Aric and I had our first big step in our relationship. Oct 28th 2011, Aric had finished his time served in the military, we had been dating only seven months. When Aric and I met our relationship moved pretty fast and it had seemed as if we were together for over a year at this point. We both walked into our relationship knowing we had children from another relationship in our past, we both knew if we got serious we both pretty much would turn into a family of four, OVER NIGHT. We both had no fears though, we knew that our hearts had led us to become one so we did just that, we got serious. So Oct 31st, we moved 3 hours away from where we met and started a life together. It has been one of the best things that has happened to us; we left behind a life of single parenting, horrible memories of our failed relationships, and our unstable lifestyles. We were actually all just getting comfortable with each other living together and getting use to life as this small new family that grew overnight! Aric and I had talked about more kids in our future, but that was like six years down the road!! So everything was going very smooth; Aric got a new job and our family was becoming mentally and emotionally sound! We finally rang in the New Year and were so excited for what 2012 would have in store for us as a family! January 4th I felt ill and very lazy, but I pulled it together because my 23rd birthday was two days away. Aric tried to make my birthday perfect; we even got a sitter for Jayden and Kaylee. My night started out great, but when I got to the restaurant and I couldn’t eat my favorite meal, I KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG, but I just kept to myself. After the meal and pushing my food all around my plate I begged to go home rather than out to the bar for a few drinks. If you are a parent you know how hard it must have been for me to beg to go home rather than enjoy a night out with my fiancé. We stopped at a store on the way home and without Aric knowing I grabbed a pregnancy test because I wanted to throw the option of being pregnant out of mind fast! Funny thing is, I wasn’t even late yet. I had my period less than 3 weeks before hand. I told myself if this feeling didn’t clear up in the next 48 hours, I would take the test. I felt like a 16 year old purchasing that pregnancy test. “There is no way I can be pregnant, I am not ready for this yet”, I remember saying over and over in my head until I fell asleep. The next morning Aric had to go away for a day for a work trip. While he was gone I had sent him a text telling him I picked up a pregnancy test. He said, “Why, you are not pregnant!” Kind of just played it off in my text messages, “Haha, just want to make sure. Plus you know how paranoid I am about things”. I was too scared to take it that day so I just went about my day actually almost forgetting all about taking the test…that didn’t last long though. I woke up at 3 am puking, I thought I was going to die. I wasn’t even really puking anything either, no food just looked like spit. I stopped puking and this familiar taste had hit my tongue, it reminded me of my pregnancy with Kaylee. At 4 am, I took the pregnancy test…(ARIC STILL NOT HOME) within 6 seconds.. it confirmed what I thought was a nightmare at the time… I WAS INDEED PREGNANT. How could I be pregnant, I have 3 years left on Mirena!? Oh yea, I forgot to mention I was mirena for birth control. I still haven’t finished school, which is what I wanted before I had any more kids, and now worried how I am going to tell Aric. Neither of us were ready for this! I remember how sick I was with Kaylee and couldn't imagine going through that again(little did I know I was going to be 100 times more sick this time). I went back to bed and stared at my phone, opened my text messaging app.. “Hey Handsome, Good Morning! I can’t sleep, I woke up sick. It is not a stomach bug, I am pregnant!” What the hell was I supposed to tell him? I laid in bed for hours… waiting for him to wake up and check his phone. He finally replied, "Not funny, Ashley." I said nothing, and sure enough two hours later I received a text saying, "Send a picture".
Man did those seven months feel like seven years. Let’s hope I can hold back my tears, because truth be told--it was one HELL of an emotional ride.
Let’s start with when Aric and I had our first big step in our relationship. Oct 28th 2011, Aric had finished his time served in the military, we had been dating only seven months. When Aric and I met our relationship moved pretty fast and it had seemed as if we were together for over a year at this point. We both walked into our relationship knowing we had children from another relationship in our past, we both knew if we got serious we both pretty much would turn into a family of four, OVER NIGHT. We both had no fears though, we knew that our hearts had led us to become one so we did just that, we got serious. So Oct 31st, we moved 3 hours away from where we met and started a life together. It has been one of the best things that has happened to us; we left behind a life of single parenting, horrible memories of our failed relationships, and our unstable lifestyles. We were actually all just getting comfortable with each other living together and getting use to life as this small new family that grew overnight! Aric and I had talked about more kids in our future, but that was like six years down the road!! So everything was going very smooth; Aric got a new job and our family was becoming mentally and emotionally sound! We finally rang in the New Year and were so excited for what 2012 would have in store for us as a family! January 4th I felt ill and very lazy, but I pulled it together because my 23rd birthday was two days away. Aric tried to make my birthday perfect; we even got a sitter for Jayden and Kaylee. My night started out great, but when I got to the restaurant and I couldn’t eat my favorite meal, I KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG, but I just kept to myself. After the meal and pushing my food all around my plate I begged to go home rather than out to the bar for a few drinks. If you are a parent you know how hard it must have been for me to beg to go home rather than enjoy a night out with my fiancé. We stopped at a store on the way home and without Aric knowing I grabbed a pregnancy test because I wanted to throw the option of being pregnant out of mind fast! Funny thing is, I wasn’t even late yet. I had my period less than 3 weeks before hand. I told myself if this feeling didn’t clear up in the next 48 hours, I would take the test. I felt like a 16 year old purchasing that pregnancy test. “There is no way I can be pregnant, I am not ready for this yet”, I remember saying over and over in my head until I fell asleep. The next morning Aric had to go away for a day for a work trip. While he was gone I had sent him a text telling him I picked up a pregnancy test. He said, “Why, you are not pregnant!” Kind of just played it off in my text messages, “Haha, just want to make sure. Plus you know how paranoid I am about things”. I was too scared to take it that day so I just went about my day actually almost forgetting all about taking the test…that didn’t last long though. I woke up at 3 am puking, I thought I was going to die. I wasn’t even really puking anything either, no food just looked like spit. I stopped puking and this familiar taste had hit my tongue, it reminded me of my pregnancy with Kaylee. At 4 am, I took the pregnancy test…(ARIC STILL NOT HOME) within 6 seconds.. it confirmed what I thought was a nightmare at the time… I WAS INDEED PREGNANT. How could I be pregnant, I have 3 years left on Mirena!? Oh yea, I forgot to mention I was mirena for birth control. I still haven’t finished school, which is what I wanted before I had any more kids, and now worried how I am going to tell Aric. Neither of us were ready for this! I remember how sick I was with Kaylee and couldn't imagine going through that again(little did I know I was going to be 100 times more sick this time). I went back to bed and stared at my phone, opened my text messaging app.. “Hey Handsome, Good Morning! I can’t sleep, I woke up sick. It is not a stomach bug, I am pregnant!” What the hell was I supposed to tell him? I laid in bed for hours… waiting for him to wake up and check his phone. He finally replied, "Not funny, Ashley." I said nothing, and sure enough two hours later I received a text saying, "Send a picture".
This is part ONE of FOUR blog post about my pregnancy/birth of my twin girls. It is a very long story to make to just one blog post! So stay tuned! The birth will be posted July 18th *THEIR FIRST BIRTHDAY!*, along with a video of the complete journey!
How did you find out you were pregnant? Was it planned or a total surprise?
How did you find out you were pregnant? Was it planned or a total surprise?
well...for me i was trying to get pregnant!
ReplyDeletei already had two kiddos, and i was praying for twins! i thought to myself i already have a boy, i already have a girl. now i want TWINS! <3 my prayer was to be pregnant with boy/girl twins. at 17 weeks i found out i was going to be blessed with twin girls! :) and at 35 weeks they were born! they were perfect! we came home the next day!! they were the answer to my prayers :D